He's on the dole again

Twitchiness was in the air, and although it wasn't a complete surprise when I was made redundant when the axe finally did fall it was a shock.

I have been a man of leisure now for nearly four weeks and I've managed to regain my balance. I will admit that the first two weeks of my enforced time off I was in a bit of a haze. It did disappoint me how hard I took it.

Don't get me wrong, there was a huge degree of relief but because my leaving didn't go to my schedule I just wasn't prepared for it. There are so many things I am passionate about that I was hungry for the opportunity to spend more time doing what I love. Iit's only just recently that I've got my shit together to actually be constructive. The most difficult thing I've found is waking up on a Monday morning and not having to be anywhere. It should be liberating but it has been terrifying. The way I've dealt with it is to continue doing my cycle ride along the Taff trail in the morning, getting just past Taffs Well train station and coming back. It's helped get me out of the house and shake up my head. By the time I get back via a swim at the Hilton pool I can attack the day. Tuesday last week I cycled up close to Caerphilly then went to visit Castell Coch. I'd often driven or cycled past it but never been in, and then cycled to Penarth and it was great to have the opportunity to do that and appreciate it,

I've got through the rocky first two weeks with the support of Sian, lots of my friends and through meditation, I've been spending far more time at the Buddhist Centre. There's a few opportunities possibly coming my way and I'm determined to enjoy this freedom for however long it lasts.